I’ve decided, after much thought, to use this blog primarily for discussion topics and not as my personal journal anymore.
I am still writing in my personal journal but have decided to take that offline; well, actually on Google Drive.
I do want to be transparent and share what’s working for me to live in recovery from sexual addiction, but as I’ve talked to others that have long-term sobriety and are living in recovery, I really value their feedback. And this is their feedback:
Almost, if not, every couple or person that has “gone public” about their process of recovery from sexual addiction has ended up getting divorced or relapsing and not doing well.
To me, just writing that out is scary.
I don’t want to be that statistic.
I want to live in recovery and be honest with myself and with others.
I’m not that big of a deal and don’t want to ever come across as having it “all figured out” or “overcome” (a word I’m beginning to despise).
I’m just a fellow among fellows doing the best I can one day at a time.
I like to write.
I like to share my opinion on topics I’m passionate about.
But I don’t want or need the limelight.
I don’t want to speak at conferences, at least not at any time in the near future and not on this topic.
Yes, I want to continue to sponsor.
Yes, I want to continue the group discussion if people find it helpful. But I don’t want to be the only voice.
I’m grateful for what writing is going to help me live in the moment, recognize my feelings and stay safe.
I’m grateful for friends in recovery that help me stay grounded.
My writing will still be online, just shared with those I know and trust most (my wife, my sponsor, and occasionally a sponsee or two).
So, with that, I’ll encourage myself and others to be honest and be part of the discussion group.