Day 15 – 10:40 p.m. – I’m in St. Louis right now, preparing to go to a conference tomorrow about distance learning for Prosper. I’m here with Lorin Hardy, the Financial Division Leader.
Today we left Salt Lake at 9:30 a.m. and flew directly to St. Louis, just in time to attend the Cardinals vs. Cubs baseball game. It was great weather and pretty fun overall. I’m pretty congested and sick, probably because of a lot of late nights lately. I need to work harder to get to bed on time.
Caleb apparently told someone at Church today, or maybe on the phone, “Daddy is speaking at General Conference…” He’d heard that I was speaking at A conference, but translated that in to “General” conference :).
I miss Becky and the kids. It’s fun to travel for business but I’d much rather be doing it with my family.
One thing I really want to focus on is the “chin up” idea that Greg has been talking about in our meetings. It deals with focusing on all people from the chin up – not looking at their bodies. Not only will this help in regards to sins of lust, but it also helps see people as they really are and not as objects. I have been off and on at keeping this commitment. It seemed like today wasn’t one of the best day, especially at the baseball game where everyone seemed to be drinking, dressed a bit immodest and I seemed to let down my guard.
Another thing I realized today was that it’s one thing to write in my journal every day – this is great and seems to be forming in to a habit. I also need to make scripture study a part of this process. It’s been ok but I feel I can do better. One idea would be to pick the step we’re currently on in the program and find scriptures about that. I could also study the actions steps more thoroughly as part of my day to day journal writing. Just some ideas that I need to act on.
I just got to talk with Becky for a few minutes. I really love her and miss her. She’s my best friend. Not only has she been so supportive and loving during these times I’ve been working the program, but she just “gets” me – she seems to understand, to an extent, what I’m going through. I’m so grateful for her.
Well, the later I’m up, the sicker I may be tomorrow. I’ll close for now.