I have 15 minutes before my battery dies on my computer.
New Personal Goal
To do my study BEFORE 12:00 p.m. (noon, not midnight)
Today was a bit of a resentful day. It started when I had to go with Becky and the kids to get the van serviced. This took 3 hours out of the day and the kids were really testing my patience.
That resentment led in to others later in the day: we had a lady from our ward come over and want to use our Mac to make a wedding video for her sister. Becky hadn’t talked about it with me at all. The lady came at 5:00 p.m., right before dinner, she was here until 6:30 p.m. and her kids ate tons of our food, broke some stuff, and she was happy go lucky as if nothing was going on. To add to that, she had US buy a song from iTunes to put on her DVD, US burn the DVD with our own DVD burner, and she didn’t offer anything except a simple “Thanks….”
I know, I know, “How did I get the ball rolling?”
I was IRATE! Not only is that what Brett and I do for WORK, but the simple fact that she didn’t even offer to pay for the service, products and time (even though we would have said no) and the fact that her kids ran rampant around our house with no shame just really got me furious.
I took out my frustration on Caleb and Becky mostly, which I apologized for after the fact.
Caleb was so sweet – I told him I was really sorry when I put him down and said I wished I was better and sorry I’m not perfect. He said, “It’s ok Daddy, the only person that’s perfect is Jesus. I love you.”
Becky and I talked it over and feel the main thing we could have done better was communicate BEFORE she came over so I knew what was happening.
Hopefully there won’t be a next time for this situation. I wonder how Jesus would have handled it all?
(Battery warning 🙂 )
Step 9 Question
“He that repents and does the commandments of the Lord shall be forgiven” (D&C 1:32).
In making amends, you may face people who will not forgive you. Maybe their hearts are still hard toward you, or perhaps they do not trust your intentions. How does it help you to know that the Lord understands the true intent of your heart and that He will receive your offer to repent and make restitution, even if other people may not?
This is very comforting. Luckily I haven’t done too much of the amends part yet so I’m not sure who I will talk with that WON’T forgive me. I guess we’ll see.
I do feel comfortable, though, knowing that as long as my heart is pure and I’m doing things for the right reason – to please God and do His will – everything will work together for my good, although it may not be “easy”.
I feel that prayer is so essential. Asking “How would Thou have me do this?” is probably a question I’ll need to repeat frequently.
I’m excited for the opportunity and have felt His “tender mercies” as I began to make amends with JC the other day.
I’m grateful I got to meet with Jason today and for the good talk we had about recovery.
Hasta manana (before noon)!