Return to the Meeting

I went last night to the group meeting for the first time in about 3 or 4 months.

Yes, I had a “valid” excuse, but no excuse is really “valid”: Becky’s class she teaches is on Wednesday and her YW schedule was changed to Thursday.

Finally I decided to go to the BYU meeting again on Tuesday nights at 7:30 p.m.

My friend Devin and I talked and decided to go together, which is always helpful.

It felt really good to get back into the meeting routine. Things have not be perfect since I stopped attending the meeting. Not only have I had a couple relapses, but I feel like I “play with fire” quite a bit by looking at Facebook photos, checking out social media places where I know there could be danger, etc.

Today I saw stuff on a new social network called Pinterest. It’s rarely ever full nudity, but sometimes partial or really close. I know the effect it’s having on my relationship with Becky and on the Spirit, which can’t be with me if I go down these paths.

So, I’m ready to start anew and get back into a routine of sorts with my recovery.

I shared the following things at the recovery meeting – things I’d learned thus far about the meeting or through the meeting:

• Keeping the CHIN UP is always going to protect me
• Working the steps of the program: reading, answering questions, applying the action steps
• Being consistent by coming to the meetings every week or more if needed
• Working with a sponsor or support person who understands what I’m going through
• Sticking to the basic things that will help
• Turning to Heavenly Father in ANY moment of temptation – doesn’t have to be long, just willingness to turn to Him

I know what I need to do – now it’s just a matter of SUBMITTING MY WILL TO GOD.

Hasta manana.

Nate