Wow, so much has happened in the last few days. On Wednesday afternoon at about 3:00 Becky told me she thought she was in labor. She’d been contracting quite a bit and was bleeding a little. She also thought she’d passed the mucus plug (ewe). So, we did what we’ve done for a couple of […]
Archives for January 2015
Dealing with Fears
As I started writing today, I wanted to think about things I’m working on right now that I could study about. Fear is the first thing that came to my mind. Fear of the unknown, fear of failure, fear of success – all these things haunt me from time to time and are things that […]
My Gratitude Journal – Day 50
I had a crazy busy day. We are scheduled for baby number 5 in Friday at 6:30 am. Both Beck and I are nervous but excited. I’m feeling sick tonight. My whole body aches. I’m ready to go to bed. I’m grateful I was aware of my feelings tonight and didn’t blow up on the […]
A Pre-Day Assessment of My Feelings
I just finished my step work for the morning and wanted to do a bit of writing about how I’m feeling today so I could get it out, think about it, and have a productive day. I’m scared about the U contract. I know I can do it, but I also realize I’m going to […]
My Gratitude Journal – Day 49
I’m grateful for the near perfect day today. The kids were great at church (the seating chart and expectations that are clear have helped). Becky and I both had good study time in the morning and then worked together to help get the kids ready for church. W went to a farewell at our old […]
My Gratitude Journal – Day 48
Today is actually Day 49 and I just submitted my step work. Last night Becky and I went on a date with Ray and Amy to Culver’s in Spanish and then back to their house to hang out. It was fun to talk with them and just relax. Ray talked about the church some as […]
My Gratitude Journal – Day 47
Today was another harder day. I felt anxiety about projects, I felt like I put things off, I felt shame because I didn’t get everything done, and I felt anger at myself for having these feelings. I did get some things done. I didn’t relapse. And I did try to submit my will to God. […]
Topical Study about Submissiveness
Submitting my will to God – what does that even mean? Today and yesterday have been harder for some reason. I don’t know for sure what it is but I think this has something to do with it: I just signed a big deal with the U and am nervous about it – am I […]
My Recovery Journal – Day 45
Today felt good. I was able to get quite a bit done, our basement bathroom is getting closer, and I got another deal for PPC hopefully tied down. I worked on step work in the morning and feel good about the progress there. I’m excited to continue working on it and be honest with myself […]
My Recovery Journal – Day 44
It’s late but I wanted to write a bit before I go to bed. Becky and I had such a great talk tonight about some of the things we’ve learned this year. It’s been an ugly and amazing year all wrapped up in one. I’ve learned a few things: 1. I have to submit my […]
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