Archives for April 2015

It’s been a few days since I wrote in my journal. I did listen to conference talks in my car, and yesterday I planned to write and then got bombarded with chaos from clients. But I feel a tendency, when these things happen and I miss studying, to shame myself and call myself a failure. […]

Yesterday was a pretty tough day: I could tell from the morning that Beck was having a tough time. I wasn’t sure if it was because my parents were coming or if it was because we were having so much to do, but I could see in her face that things weren’t good. The day […]

Today I want to study more from the talk “On Being Genuine” by President Uchtdorf. This is one of the quotes that sticks out: The Lord’s prophets have ever raised a warning voice against those who “draw near [to the Lord] with their mouth, and with their lips do honour [Him], but have removed their […]

I really appreciated Becky’s journal that she shared with me last night. This is the part that made me feel so good and so loved: I felt a measure of peace as I felt the Spirit calming my heart and helping me to know that Nate truly is in recovery, and is looking to God […]

Do I need to create boundaries for my parents? Yesterday, I was pretty frustrated because I feel my dad often shames everyone he talks to. I don’t think he realizes it, but that doesn’t mean I have to just go along with it and let it cause me to build up resentment and anger that […]

Today is a new day. Today I’m trying to turn my life and will over to God and live in recovery. Today is challenging; my parents have been in town since Friday night and I seem to notice more now than ever how much my dad uses shame in his communication with everyone: Mom, the […]

I want to study today about honesty, for honesty is one of the things we talked about yesterday at the UCAP conference. I’m grateful for honesty. One of the speakers said that honesty is true intimacy in a marriage. Honesty is what connects Becky and I emotionally. Honesty is the first step in the addiction […]

I’m grateful to have had the chance tonight to go with Caleb to a movie night at his school. Earlier today, as Becky and Chloe were getting ready to go to school, I had the urge to write a little note to Caleb to tell him how excited I was to go with him to […]

Today was a good day. I got up fairly early after a long night with Jayden puking all over his bed and then crying once and also Tyson crying too. I worked a little later last night and got some things submitted to Harman. It felt good to get them off my back. I felt […]

Today is a new day. Today Becky and I have the chance to get back into a routine. Today we can go to bed early, do the AEIOU’s, read our scriptures together, and just enjoy the peace and quiet. It’s been a great week with Becky’s parents here. They are fairly easy to work with, […]