Whosoever transgresseth against me, him shall ye judge according to the sins which he has committed; and if he confess his sins before thee and me, and repenteth in the sincerity of his heart, him shall ye forgive, and I will forgive him also” (Mosiah 26:29).
When you confess your sins, you must be sincere. Consider how holding back part of your confession undermines the sincerity of your efforts. What part of your inventory, if any, are you tempted to hide?
I was tempted to hide some of the past transgressions I’d committed with girls, mainly because I thought to myself, “Haven’t I already repented of that?” But as I prayed about it and thought it all through, I thought, “I can’t be afraid of what others think – this is to clean my slate and make things right.”
It wasn’t easy to read through some of those things, but I’m glad I added them and feel I put all things on the table in my inventory.
One other thing I am conscious of now is not thinking, “Well, did I do that?” or almost adding things that I can’t really remember. I don’t want to create things in my mind.
I’m grateful to be close to finishing Step 5 and moving on to Step 6 in the process of recovery.
Things I’m Grateful For
- That I was able to talk with Dane in my quarterly review without getting upset, defensive, or emotional
- That I was able to think through things before going in to the meeting
- That I remembered to say a little prayer asking for help to not over react or get upset
- That my first trade in Forex was a success
- That the appointment Ben and I had with Todd seemed to go well
- That I was able to go through my voicemails and get people contacted that had been waiting
- That I may have landed two big orders for ClogOn.com with shoe shops
What do you have to gain by continuing to hide this portion of your inventory? What do you have to lose?
I feel, as I’m 100% honest with myself, with others, and mostly, with God, I am on my way to FULL RECOVERY. I’ve been trying to recover for over 20 years now and never have been able to overcome these addictions on my own, mostly due to the fact that I wasn’t being completely honest to myself or God.
By being honest and including even the tough things to my inventory, I’m taking steps that others who have been in my shoes had to take to fully recover from their addictions.
If I leave stuff out and am not fully honest, I believe I’ll eventually fall back in to similar errors.
I’m grateful for this program and for the way it’s helping me learn how to use the Atonement in every aspect of my life.