AtonementToday.com

How have you used the Atonement Today?

  • Menu
    • About
    • Contact Us
    • Blog
    • Daily Accountability – Morning
    • Daily Accountability – Evening
    • The Practice of Identifying Feelings
Home » I’ve Had Better Days Overall

I’ve Had Better Days Overall

By N

Today wasn’t a “bad” day.

I don’t feel it was my best day either.

Here’s why:

  • I lost my temper and overreacted a bit with Caleb tonight
  • After the kids went down, I “surfed” the TV and watched a few minutes of America’s Next Top Model – waste of time and not a good idea for me
  • I wasn’t the most productive at work today, although I did get some things done
  • Before I began surfing, I had the feeling that I should work on a question or write in my journal FIRST but I ignored it (my will vs. God’s will)
  • I keep thinking I am not getting paid enough for all the work I do – this is my pride coming in I feel, although I continue to justify my reasoning
  • I read the scriptures this morning, but I didn’t really apply them today

Anyway, I’m grateful for the program and the Atonement that is helping me recognize these weaknesses.

Here is a comment I made tonight on my start of Step 7 post:

Today I’m starting the review of the Step 7 questions. It’s interesting to read back at my thoughts at the time. I really do feel there is more I can do, primarily in submitting my will and earnestly praying for Heavenly Father’s help in overcoming my weaknesses.

I don’t feel I’ve spent earnest time in personal prayer. Yes, I’ve practiced the “I need your help” strategy over and over again, but making time to have a good conversation is something I feel I can do more consistently to show God my time is not more important than HIs.

I feel another “sacrifice” I can make to God is kneeling down to say my personal prayers, at least in the morning and at night. No, this isn’t a sacrifice necessarily, or shouldn’t be, but it’s something I’m not doing now that I feel could help.

I’m grateful to be staring the review process and look forward to getting back closer to the Spirit. Today, and other days throughout this step, I feel like I’ve been in the “yellow area” of the pendulum of addiction.

Another thing I feel like I can do to help get closer to the Lord is re-read the step I’m working on more frequently. I’ve got in the habit lately of just answering a question but not really reading the step. Like anything worthwhile, as I go back and re-read, different things will hit home and influence me for good.

Things I’m Thankful For

  • That I have a job that pays me well
  • That my job allows me to work on my businesses
  • That I have good friends at work who I feel respect me and I respect them
  • That I love my kids and recognize areas I can improve as a parent
  • That I’m able to write out my feelings like this and review previous thoughts
  • That I’m realizing more and more that God and His Son are there to help if and when I ask
  • That Becky is doing such a great job in her calling
  • That I was invited to one of my primary boy’s baptism

Hasta Luego!

Nate

Filed Under: Step 7 Humility

Recent Comments

  • Dick Rucker on Discussion: How to help a struggling sponsee?
  • Ari on Discussion: Does One Really Need to Hit Rock Bottom to Recover?
  • DeWayne on Discussion: How to help a struggling sponsee?
  • What Does Effective Sponsorship Really Look Like? – SA Lifeline on 53 Must’s to Live in Real Recovery from Addiction
  • Nate on Discussion: Is Caffeine a Coping Mechanism for Sexual Addiction?
June 2010
S M T W T F S
 12345
6789101112
13141516171819
20212223242526
27282930  
« May   Aug »

Sobriety Date: 2/7/14

  • Days in Recovery:
    4151 days ago

Copyright © 2025 AtonementToday.com · Disclaimer · Log in