I’d typed up some content already and then lost it…
My new goal is to not only send Jason an email on a consistent basis, but to include at least one answer to a question from the manual and additional study too. I plan to do this 24 times in October, starting today. This means that every day moving forward I will get this accomplished, preferably at the first of the day.
Our meeting was great tonight, although I believe I offended Matthew. Last week we had 22 people there, but the missionaries said we should not split the group. Many of us were a bit bothered by this but proceeded. At the end of the meeting, one of the Elders read a statement from the mission president or the Brethren. It stated that splitting up the classes was not recommended and that if we needed to split, it was time to create a new meeting.
The meeting proceeded last week and everyone kept the “rule” of speaking for only 3-5 minutes. By the end, I really felt the Spirit and was really uplifted.
Today, when the topic was brought up to split, Matthew, who wasn’t there last week to hear the council, immediately said we should split. Bob spoke up and stated that the Elder had read a letter from the Brethren last week but Matthew was pretty insistent. I spoke up then and sided with Bob on the what had been said last week and how things had gone.
I then decided to share first and talked a bit about last week, the Spirit that was felt, and the power of obedience. After I shared, Matthew got up and left. I honestly had no intention of offending him, nor was I really trying to prove a point. I really felt it was a great learning experience for all of us last week to “do the will of someone else instead of thinking our way was the only right way…”
Anyway, it was interesting and I hope things will be ok next week and moving forward.
Reaching out to others
“Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:
“Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again” (Luke 6:37–38).
Even though you may fear that some people will reject your efforts to make peace with them, do not let this fear keep you from putting them on your list and preparing yourself to reach out to them. The blessings are far greater than the pain. Study these verses, and write about the blessings of becoming willing to make amends.
I think this is a really interesting scripture and question based on what I just wrote about. As far as I can tell right now, I’m not afraid to reach out to any of the people on the list I created in Step 4 (although I may need to really look at the list again before I say that). I’ve felt so much better at work lately because of the “amends” that I feel Dane and I have had. I’ve felt so much more grateful for him. I’ve felt less worried about what others think. I’ve felt less competitive in nature. And I’ve recognized that my way is NOT the only way to do things. I’ve also recognized more now than ever that a bad attitude will get me nowhere except FIRED.
The whole situation with Monty really opened my eyes in a variety of areas. First, that Dane really does seem to want to do what is best. Second, that we really do want to do what’s best for our clients, even though at times it may seem a bit otherwise. Third, if I handle things more professionally and tactfully, it’s better for everyone involved!
Things I’m Grateful For
- That I was able to go to the meeting this evening
- That I talked with Jason on the phone briefly about my “reformed goal”
- That work today was pretty productive
- That I avoided a conversation with Lorin that could have stirred my prideful pot
- That I was able to share my feelings about my core addiction again at the meeting (PRIDE)
- That the pride topic came up quite a bit at the meeting
- That I resisted the urge today to “browse” around on Facebook
- That Becky talked to me tonight about some of the tough feelings she’s had lately
- That I realized, after listening to her, that it’s probably best not to talk about some of the details of my recovery with her (not that I can’t be honest, but that it can make some things a lot more difficult to understand)