Well, I currently have 74 days in recovery from my addiction to pornography and all that comes with that.
I’m taking one day at a time.
I’m talking a lot with B about recovery.
She’s going to the Women’s Support Group.
I’ve been working on Step 3, Trust in God from the LDS Addiction Recovery Manual. I’m in the process of creating the process here on AtonementToday.com so that I can easily go to the site, read a step, and answer the action steps accordingly.
At some point I’d love for others to use this service too, but I’m not sure about copyright and anonymity. One day I’ll talk to the program about this idea.
B and I have been having great talks about recovery, about the mistakes I’ve made, and about what we plan to do moving forward. I don’t know that I’ve ever felt more close to her than I do right now.
I’ve been seeing a counselor as well, Scott, who has been helping me become more aware of my needs, of B’s needs, and of what I can work on each day and week to overcome my addictions and do what is right.
A few things I’ve done different in this recovery
- I’ve kept track of recovery date
- I’ve “buried my weapons of war”
- Apps on phone
- Phone usage
- I’ve worked on the steps consistently
- I’ve been practicing praying the moment of temptation
I feel strong that this is the time I will submit my will completely to God.