I’m going to do the practice again today of writing out how I’m feeling and then going back and reviewing why I’m feeling that way, or what my part is in the feeling.
What Am I Feeling Right Now?
I feel anxious.
I feel anxious because of the nursing app and the issues I’m having with FS. If I’m being honest, I feel unappreciated, disrespected, and that my projects that I send to them aren’t really that big of a priority for them. I feel nervous that I’m letting Brett and Lacey down and that the app still needs work that I’m not sure who to turn to.
What can I do next?
- I have a call scheduled with Lacey at 11:00. I’m going to tell her that the contractor I was using ended up leaving and it has put me in a difficult situation.
- I’m going to try to reach out to Brian to see if I can contract with him to make the necessary updates and answer some of my question.
- I’m also going to research optimizing an app to see what needs to happen to move the app up when searched for in the App Store.
I feel frustrated.
I feel frustrated that FS has consistently dropped the ball with the projects I’ve brought them: IMS, Karen P, Nursing. I feel the only way things really get done is if I bug, bug, bug, follow up, follow up, follow up. And the difficult thing is I’ve been to the office when they really aren’t doing much of anything it doesn’t seem like. I feel they are so used to outsourcing the work that it’s out of sight out of mind. I do understand this and am guilty of it myself, but when the shoe’s on the other foot, it’s more difficult to have patience.
What can I do next?
- First, I won’t be referring any new business to them in the future.
- Second, I can reach out to other contractors to see what types of deals we can work out (Bill, Harman, Barry, other local firms, Upwork)
- Finally, I can continue to follow up until the project I’m working on with them is finalized. What I don’t want to do is burn any bridges or say things I’ll regret later.
I feel a bit overwhelmed.
I’m feeling this way because I have a lot to do today: proposals, calls, PO creation, deliverables – it’s all adding up.
What can I do next?
- I feel like writing out how I’m feeling is helping already. All I can do is all I can do.
- I can stick to my calendar the best I can and chip away and the most important things first.
- Nursing App
- DEP Call
- PO for Caleb for South Rim
- Proposal for A La Mode
- Proposal for Dance America
- Proposal for Eric M
- Prepare for Nate R call
- Review what’s next
I feel somewhat guilty.
I’m feeling guilty because I feel there is always more I can do for the U. Yes, I’ve done some things, but I don’t know that I feel it’s enough. I want to do honest work for honest pay. I’ve really lucked out in how effective things have seemed to go as far as increased sales, but that doesn’t justify me in not doing much more. I want to be honest and provide the service they expect plus some.
What can I do next?
- Map out a plan for the next 6 months
- Find the right people to help me with that plan
- Implement strategy and tactics that I can report on on a monthly basis
- Monitor progress
I feel nervous.
I feel this way because I have a call today with a DEP lead and I’m not 100% sure what questions to even ask. I want this part of the business to increase but I’m not sure how much Devin can fulfill. I’m also feeling nervous about getting all the work I have on my plate done today and not leaving important things out.
What can I do next?
- Review notes
- Review calendar
- Take things one step at a time
- Breathe
- Ask for help
I feel relieved.
I think I feel this way because I got some good work done this morning for a client. I didn’t go to BNI, which allowed me to get more done as well.
What can I do next?
- Be grateful for what I have
- Continue to make progress
I feel grateful.
I am grateful for all the work I have coming. There’s so much to do. I’m grateful that things have worked out so well, especially since being in some recovery from my addiction.
What can I do next?
- Continue to practice gratitude and surrender
- Be aware of all the things God is blessing me with and recognize His hand in my day to day endeavors
I feel a little crazy and chaotic.
This has tamed down since the kids went to school 🙂 Sometimes they are just a bit too much. Caleb seems to stir things up, get everyone talking really loud, and just does things that can get on my nerves. However, I am grateful for him and I love him and I need to be more aware of how he might be feeling.
What can I do next?
- Breathe
- Be grateful
I feel alone.
This is because I am alone in my business. Yes, I have contractors, but unless I go out of my way, I don’t have business contacts that I can mingle with much. I don’t feel as bad right now, but it’s something I’m aware of.
What can I do next?
- Reach out to others
- Write
- Connect with God
- Connect with Becky
- Connect with friends in recovery
I feel unsure of what to do next.
I don’t feel as bad now that I’ve written things out. I’m feeling ready to get moving and take the next steps.
What can I do next?
- I’m going to find a scripture that relates to these feelings.
I went to LDS.org and found this fitting picture:
This is a good answer. I just need to get to work. Writing things out has been so helpful today. Reaching out will be helpful too I feel. Answering the comments may also be helpful.
I’m grateful for surrender: on my knees, on the phone, and writing things down (although I generally go in this order – on my knees, write it down, on the phone).
I look forward to a great day in recovery.
(Now I’ll go back and write about why I’m feeling these things and what I can do next…)
Hasta luego!
Nate
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