Day 21 Step Work – 12.14.14
Believe in God the Eternal Father and in His Son, Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost
Most of us grew up with some concept of God, and as members of the Church we at least had some knowledge of Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost. We may even have had a simple belief in Them, but often we did not connect our personal struggles with our need for God’s power in our lives.
The action required in step 2 is simply to become willing to practice believing in the love and mercy of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and the accessibility and blessing of the Holy Ghost. Our testimonies are that you can come to know the perfectly united love of the Godhead by watching for evidence of Their love and power in your life and in the lives of others.
Do you feel more aware of God’s love for you? How?
Yes, I do feel more aware of God’s love for me. I’ve felt it in my life lately as I’m trying to put my trust in Him and submit to Him throughout the day. These last few days, or maybe even weeks, have been harder with so many people around (my parents, then Becky’s mom, then my parents again). So many distractions. I’m grateful for the time I’ll have this week to really focus on God’s love and how I am feeling it in my life.
I’m grateful that today is day 310 in recovery from my addictions. I know that this is one manifestation of God’s love for me – His willingness to help me and be there for me despite my selfish choices.
I feel my kids and wife are also examples of His love for me. My parents and extended family too.
Are you becoming more able to draw upon His power to bless your life? How?
I hope so. I feel saying a prayer in the moment of temptation and asking for help to avoid looking on women from the chin down is one way I’m drawing upon His power to bless my life.
I feel I can draw on it more. I want to draw on it more.
Is your hope for recovery, healing, and positive change in your life truly increasing? Describe how this feels.
Yes, I believe it is. Like I said earlier, I’ve felt a little distracted lately with all the changes in our routine due to family, but this is no excuse. I have a strong hope and belief in my recovery, healing and positive changes. I feel them in the ways I respond to the kids and to Becky. I want to be calm and full of the Spirit. I want to live in recovery one day at a time. I want to study the scriptures and have good talks with Becky. I want to continue to build that trust with her that I lost from past choices.
I’m grateful that tomorrow is a new day and that today, I’ve tried my best to submit and focus on what’s most important.
Are you now willing to practice believing that Heavenly Father, the Savior, and the Holy Ghost are available to you for help in progressing in your recovery and life?
Yes! I’ve been practicing believing now for at least the last 310 days. I feel that only because of them have I been able to live in recovery. I don’t want to get complacent or casual in my recovery, though. I want to continue working on the steps and feeding my Spirit. I’m willing to do whatever it takes to continue to feel the Spirit in my life.
Will you continue to watch for evidence of Them in your daily life?
Yes, absolutely. I want to recognize God’s hand in my life on a day to day basis. I want to look for blessings and thank Him openly for them. I’m sure, if I watch, they are all around me.
How have you seen the Lord’s hand in your recovery and your life so far?
Well, in a lot of ways. The first would have to be that my wife and family are still with me despite of my terrible choices. I’m grateful that He has helped calm my wife’s heart and helped her work on recovery and forgiveness one day at a time.
I’m grateful for each day in my recovery and feel this has only been possible because of their help in my life.
I’m grateful that I’m able to go to the temple, partake of the sacrament, and that my desires and appetites have seemed to change because of the efforts I’m making to submit to Him in recovery.
I’m grateful that I look forward to talking with Becky and that I don’t feel I’m hiding anything from her. This is all due to the fact that He is healing me I feel.