Today was a pretty good day. Got to sleep in a little bit while the kids watched cartoons. Then we got up and I started step work. Today’s step work was quite long.
As I was working on the step work, the kids were being crazy and I could tell Becky was getting a little bit stressed so I stopped and came out to help. My job on Saturdays is to vacuum – I vacuumed the whole main floor. It felt good to act on the urge to just stop what I was doing and come out and help.
It seemed like Becky was having a hard day the whole day. We went on a date tonight, ate at Bam Bams, and then watched Exodus the movie. It was an ok show, definitely not one I would buy or probably want to watch again – pretty violent. Beck was emotional during the show and just seemed pretty distant all day.
We had a talk tonight and she shared that some of the things I was doing reminded her of when I was in my addiction: staying in the bathroom for a while reading the news, going over what I had been working on after my step work.
I was sincerely trying to be honest with her although I did feel a bit guilty for working on my step work for so long and then doing a bit of work for a client.
I am grateful we were able to talk it over. I don’t know that she was in any better of a place after the talk but I am trying to show her that I am here.
I’m grateful to have lived another day in recovery.
I’m grateful that I was able to cheer Caleb up after he was having a bad attitude.
I’m grateful that, when we went to the grocery store and Costco, that I was able to submit my will to Him and say a prayer for help.