Does Sharing My Recovery Story with the Public Put Me at Risk?

I’m not sure the answer to this question.

But, based on a conversation I had recently with some friends I really trust in recovery, and based on the conversation I just had with my wife, I think it may.

Who am I writing for?

Who am I writing to?

Why am I sharing my thoughts and plans and feelings with the world?

Is it to be “seen” as something I’m not?

Is it to create a facade?

Is it to gain the praise of others?

The truth is, I don’t know for sure.

I could justify it and say I’m working Step 12. I could say I just want to help others.

But, at the end of the day, am I more worried about working my own recovery one day at a time, or am I more worried about the number of click-throughs I get on bit.ly or the traffic I get from Google Analytics? At least sometimes, probably the later…

Does this mean I want to stop the conversation and the discussion group? No.

But I may want to re-consider what  I choose to share with the world about my own personal recovery.

What I don’t want to fall into is pride, a must-be-seen-as, someone who thinks he has it all figured out, when, in essence, I don’t and may never.

I want to share my voice. I want to keep things out in the light. But I don’t know if that means I share every feeling and action and thought.

Again, I don’t know the answer to the question I initially proposed. But I was told recently that nearly every couple that has been on a documentary or spoke at a conference or shared a blog or podcast – nearly every one of them has either since divorced or has fallen back into the addiction cycle.

Does that mean everyone has done that? I don’t think so, but I don’t want to be another statistic.

So, those are my thoughts right now.

Hasta luego.

Nate