I’ve decided, after much thought, to use this blog primarily for discussion topics and not as my personal journal anymore. I am still writing in my personal journal but have decided to take that offline; well, actually on Google Drive. I do want to be transparent and share what’s working for me to live in […]
Recognizing My Negative Emotions Today
I’m feeling a lot of stress and anxiety right now. I love having the family here, but I’ve not been able to work at all and have projects that need to be finished. I’ve received a bad review from a HS client. I got a fairly mean email from a client who wants his site […]
Does Sharing My Recovery Story with the Public Put Me at Risk?
I’m not sure the answer to this question. But, based on a conversation I had recently with some friends I really trust in recovery, and based on the conversation I just had with my wife, I think it may. Who am I writing for? Who am I writing to? Why am I sharing my thoughts […]
How Can I Connect with God Today?
Today is a new day. Yesterday was hard. Beck isn’t doing very well right now. A large part of it is due to an article she read by a “psychologist” from BYU that basically said pornography isn’t that big of a deal, isn’t an addiction, and just needs to be used responsibly. He also said […]
An Interesting Recovery Experience with my Oldest
I didn’t get up quite as early as I’d have liked to today, but I feel good about this morning so far. Here’s what’s on my list to do today: Pray, Write – DONE Get the proposal ready for BB Have the proposal presentation Have a call about CX with DA Have a call about […]
The Power of Digging & Digging to Discover Core Negative Emotions
Yesterday was a good day overall. However, as I ended work I had some feelings that I didn’t even realize until later. Here’s the experience: Beck had mentioned that she was excited for the evening because we didn’t have any commitments and could just relax (at least that’s what I thought she meant). I worked […]
Dealing with Physical Pain While Working Recovery
I feel really crappy today. I’m not 100% sure what I did to my back, but I haven’t felt this much pain in I don’t know how long. I think it had to do with going paddle boarding the other day – I used muscles that I haven’t used for a long time and didn’t […]
Discussion: Overcome vs. Surrender a Sexual Addiction
This topic has been on my mind off and on for quite some time, especially after attending LDS ARP meetings. I often hear some of my fellows say things like, “I know I can overcome this addiction,” or “I know that if I read my scriptures more and pray more, I will overcome this.” Unfortunately, […]
Another Day to Surrender to God
It’s a new day. I feel better this morning. Yesterday was difficult from an emotions standpoint. I don’t know how to act or what to do when it comes to sexual health. Beck and I talked about it a bit last night and I assured her I wasn’t mad at her at all – just […]
The Ongoing Work of Full Disclosure
I just finished working on my full disclosure document, which is never fun. I also had a tough talk with Beck this morning about something our therapist said to her after her meeting recently with him. He told her that we should probably not have sex as much in the future and that that part […]
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