Recognizing My Negative Emotions Today

I’m feeling a lot of stress and anxiety right now.

I love having the family here, but I’ve not been able to work at all and have projects that need to be finished.

I’ve received a bad review from a HS client. I got a fairly mean email from a client who wants his site done already, and I’m not sure what I can control.

I don’t feel really connected to Becky. I don’t feel disconnected but, with so much going on, we haven’t really had much time at all to talk one on one.

I need to surrender these feelings. I can only do what I can do. And, I need to rely on my connection with God first and foremost.

I feel stressed that so much is going on here at the house, so many kids running all around – I get worried someone is going to get hurt or break something.

We’ve had some really good talks with Andy. He’s having a hard time with his wife right now. It’s interesting to me: she seems to be the one in addict mode – filling her life with all kinds of tasks to do, being busy all the time, and being really detached from Andy.

Yesterday I talked with my sponsor to surrender some of the feelings I was having. That really helped. I feel that if I’m not working with my sponsor, I’m letting pride get in the way, which ultimately will lead me down the wrong path.

I feel better writing things out.

I look forward to driving up to Sandy now and praying out loud, asking for His help.

I will be grateful when this week is over.

But I have to focus only on today.

I can’t think too far ahead.

Here’s the list of things I can do today:

1. Meet with FS to go over the demo site
   • Get 2nd of 3 payments from them
   • Get content they want to add to the home page and any sub-pages finalized
     • Slider content
     • Widget content
2. Follow up with Alisha Casey about next steps – DONE
3. Deposit money
4. BDT work
5. Update ALM content on landing page – DONE
   • Invoice for the work completed
6. Breathe!

That’s it for now.