Today felt better than yesterday. I recognized a few things today that have caused me some frustration, anxiety, and stress.
1. I have a couple projects I just keep putting off, either because I know they are time consuming or because I don’t want to do them. By putting them off, I’m procrastinating and this causes me to feel shame or do other things that aren’t really that important.
I didn’t waste too much time today but I didn’t feel like I was on my A game either. I was glad I did the step work but was also stressed about my meeting with Karen and about how things would go.
Tomorrow I’m committed to working on the two projects first thing in the morning after step work.
2. I also feel like I need to/want to study more about a topic in the scriptures. I kind of stopped doing this over the break and just did journal entries. Tomorrow I will make the time to do more study too.
Other than that, I feel things went well today.
I want to be careful and aware of these feelings and turn my will to God and let Him know where I’m at.
I’m grateful that things seemed to go well with the kids and I tonight.
I’m grateful I went to scouts and it was a fun service project.
I’m grateful that we had some boys show up.
I’m grateful to have a calling that I enjoy.
I’m grateful that Chloe was able to let Becky know that J was choking today and that Becky could help him.
I’m grateful that I tried to connect with Madi tonight when she was overreacting a little bit.
I’m grateful that I got paid some today. I’m grateful that the PPC campaign projects are working.
I’m excited to start the MM ppc tomorrow.
I’m grateful for the ideas I have for Becky for Christmas.
I’m grateful that her classes are coming to an end so she can rest and prepare to have a baby.
I’m grateful for another day of recovery.
I want to be aware and careful of what I use my phone for with the Internet. I don’t want to get into places that could be potentially dangerous.
I look forward to a new day tomorrow where I submit my will to God and practice surrendering throughout the day.