Today was a much better day for me. I was able to get the projects done or started that I’d been putting off. And this felt really good.
Step work today went well. This work today was pretty long but worth the time to remember where I’ve been, the consequences of where I’ve been, and the feelings of regret and remorse that come back as I think about the past and what happened.
I’m so grateful that today is a new day.
I’m grateful that I got paid for a project today.
I’m grateful that Beck and I had a good talk tonight.
I’m grateful that I had a good talk with Caleb too, a talk that helped him realize why he may have been feeling angry. I feel I’ve learned how important it is to talk about feelings, emotions and frustrations and to be aware of why I’m having those feelings, where they come from, and what I can do vs. what I need to submit to God and just let go.
I hope to have talks like this all the time with my kids so they can avoid some of the pain I’ve gone through due to my hiding from my emotions and fears.
I’m grateful that tomorrow is recovery meeting. I’m grateful that tomorrow will be day 300 in recovery from my addiction.
I’m grateful that recovery is only one day at a time – otherwise I’d feel so overwhelmed and anxious all the time.
I’m so grateful how close I feel to Becky. I’m so grateful she’s trying to forgive me. I’m so grateful that, with time, I have hope that I can earn back her trust. I’m so grateful that I married my best and closest friend.
I’m grateful our kids are healthy, happy and strong. I’m grateful they’ve been blessed with talents and have lots of friends.
I look forward to another day in recovery and am glad I did theist important things first today – prayer and step work.
I’m grateful to now go to bed.