Today is a new day in recovery. Today I feel excited about living in recovery. I have a lot to do, but I wanted to get to my study before jumping in to anything else. What am I feeling today? I wrote an email to my sponsee with the new check-in details. I added what […]
Focusing on Recovery Instead of on Not Acting Out
Yesterday I wrote about our meeting with Adam Moore and the new form of check-in that Becky and I implemented. It went really well. We didn’t stay to the 5-7 minute idea because we started at 9:00 at night, but both of us feel it’s a much more thorough way to check-in and evaluate the […]
1st Meeting with Adam Moore
Becky and I went to see Adam Moore today at BYU. He’s one of the most famous psychologists on sexual addiction recovery and healing in the area. It was a great meeting. I was nervous, I was apprehensive, and I was experiencing a bit of self-doubt. Things like “Am I really in recovery?” “Are there […]
The Two Year Mark in Recovery
Today is an important day – today is my official two year mark in recovery from addiction to pornography, masturbation and lust. Today, two years ago, was the start of a new life. Today, two years ago, I’m not sure I was in real recovery, but it was the last time I have acted out […]
What is Humility and How Do I Practice Having It?
I don’t have much time to study right now, but hope to continue this after my meeting this morning. The question I posted in the title is for me, not for anyone else. I want to be practicing humility always by acknowledging God’s hand in my life. My first response or intuition says that the […]
The 3 Keys to Living in Real Recovery from Addiction
Yesterday I had questions that I wasn’t sure how to answer. I’m grateful that I was willing and able to reach out to a few people to get feedback. I reached out to Mark and Steven and got a call back from Steven fairly quickly. My question was about how I’m feeling about the LDS […]
Acting Out in Addiction and Feeling the Spirit – Can they Co-Exist?
One thing I’m hung up on is this – can an addict who has just acted out feel the Spirit strongly and be “at one” with God? From my own experience, I think one can feel the Spirit, maybe a little, but the feelings when I was in my addiction were not common and were […]
How I Can Cope with Fear
A new day. Last night was a pretty good talk. I shared how I don’t compare, I don’t want to compare, and when I made those comments, they were in reference to what my sponsee had told me (and NOT how I was feeling at the time or how I feel today or how I […]
Dealing with Negative Emotions and Fear
I had a pretty good day yesterday. Per my goals from the first of the year, I worked on the U Sponsorship most of the day and also worked on the Apple stuff and a bit of MM Web – all three things that are at the top of my list of goals. The hard […]
What Does It Mean To Bury My Weapons of War?
When it comes to sexual addiction, there is generally a common path to acting out. I’ve learned about the ABC’s of addiction – the Debilitating Negative Emotions (A), which leads to Lust (B), which leads to Sexually Acting Out (C). I’ve also learned about boundaries and lines of demarcation that I can’t touch if I […]