Wow, so much has happened in the last few days. On Wednesday afternoon at about 3:00 Becky told me she thought she was in labor. She’d been contracting quite a bit and was bleeding a little. She also thought she’d passed the mucus plug (ewe). So, we did what we’ve done for a couple of […]

I had a crazy busy day. We are scheduled for baby number 5 in Friday at 6:30 am. Both Beck and I are nervous but excited. I’m feeling sick tonight. My whole body aches. I’m ready to go to bed. I’m grateful I was aware of my feelings tonight and didn’t blow up on the […]

I’m grateful for the near perfect day today. The kids were great at church (the seating chart and expectations that are clear have helped). Becky and I both had good study time in the morning and then worked together to help get the kids ready for church. W went to a farewell at our old […]

Today was another harder day. I felt anxiety about projects, I felt like I put things off, I felt shame because I didn’t get everything done, and I felt anger at myself for having these feelings. I did get some things done. I didn’t relapse. And I did try to submit my will to God. […]

Today felt good. I was able to get quite a bit done, our basement bathroom is getting closer, and I got another deal for PPC hopefully tied down. I worked on step work in the morning and feel good about the progress there. I’m excited to continue working on it and be honest with myself […]

It’s late but I wanted to write a bit before I go to bed. Becky and I had such a great talk tonight about some of the things we’ve learned this year. It’s been an ugly and amazing year all wrapped up in one. I’ve learned a few things: 1. I have to submit my […]

Oh it’s good to be back in a routine. Today was a good day, lots to catch up on, lots to do, but I’m ready for 2015. I listened to part of the Beware of Pride talk today. It’s always a great reminder of how my negative emotions all start with pride. I’m grateful to […]

It’s actually Day 43 today, and I just turned in my Day 43 Step Work, but I wanted to take a few minutes to write out my feelings and what happened yesterday and this morning. I felt good yesterday: I did a fast for Becky and the new baby to be healthy and strong and […]

Today went pretty well. It’s the last day of the Christmas vacation for the kids, so they were pretty crazy. Since they’ve been getting to bed late, they have been pretty whiny and not always with the best attitude. This has been a challenge for me to keep my composure and not lose it on […]