Archives for July 2014

I didn’t feel good about today starting last night when I got B’s email stating that she’d had a hard day. I shared with her my feelings, my thoughts, and how things were going, hoping that maybe it would help today, being our 12th Anniversary. But no, it didn’t help it doesn’t appear. I felt […]

I sent my apology letter yesterday night after thinking about it all day. It’s only been about 8 hours or so, but I wait anxiously for her response. I love her so much. I cherish our friendship and companionship so much. I never, ever want to let her down again. I think one of the […]

Hey honey, Thank you so much for sharing your poems and writing with me. Although it’s all really tough to swallow, realizing that I’m the cause of all the pain, anger, sadness, fear, and heart-break, I’m grateful you’ve written it all out so I can actually review it and remember the mess I’ve made. I […]

I’m sitting in the Detroit airport. I have a 3 hour layover. And I’m reading about pornography and sex addiction from the author of new site I found of a recovering addict who’s LDS. I feel pretty good about where I am today. B and I had a great talk yesterday and it was close […]

Today was the second full day of B and I’s time away from one another (me in Nauvoo, she in Fondy). It’s been hard. I’ve missed her. The kids have missed her. But I just got off the phone with her and feel it’s been the right decision for both of us. For me, it’s […]

Last night was tough, but fortunately not as tough as I thought. As I said last night: Deep down B not going is probably best. It’s been so hard here in Door County. Every day brings back memories to her that are hard and painful. I can only imagine what it would be like there […]

Well, today was another really tough day: B had her talk with her sponsor this morning and when I got back from golfing with her brother and dad, things didn’t seem to be good at all. Things felt so distant and detached again. I know it’s bad when we go on a date tonight and […]

I started this post yesterday (the 8th) and wanted to finish it this evening before I head to bed. Yesterday was a TOUGH day. It didn’t start off too bad – in fact, I felt it was going to be a good day; but as the day went on, the detachment and distance and anger […]

After over 24 hours on the road in two days, we’re here. Today we went to Church and had a really good experience: we blessed baby June and then heard some really good testimonies, one by a little seven year old who is sad she’s leaving to live in Utah. She was in tears, she […]